February 2012
How do you know...
When you’re being ridiculous in your expectations, or overcompensating and making excuses?
Two swigs and a good movie? Problem not solved, but at least I feel worse about that than wanting to think about this. Because whats the point right? Im just being silly, but what has lowing my standards ever done for me but leave me alone on a paved road?
Eh. Troubles for tomorrow. For now?...
Why?
checked his facebook, can’t even see anything since we arn’t friends, but I still got the pain and the nausea and I almost started to cry.
IM SO TIRED OF BEING AFRAID.
somedays I want so badly to just run back to him, to be treated like that again, because a part of me still believes I don’t deserve better.
I tell the story, everytime it gets more distant and it feels more...
I miss...
I miss Sean so much it physically hurts. Now I joke around about all the pretty boys in my school and the crazy wild sex I’m (not) having- but really, I just can’t tell him how lonely I get sometimes. Because it hurts so badly, a really ache in my chest that brings tears to my eyes because I miss him so much. I don’t know how much i can take and then I get to thinking that I...
