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Why?
checked his facebook, can’t even see anything since we arn’t friends, but I still got the pain and the nausea and I almost started to cry.
IM SO TIRED OF BEING AFRAID.
somedays I want so badly to just run back to him, to be treated like that again, because a part of me still believes I don’t deserve better.
I tell the story, everytime it gets more distant and it feels more like a dream or a re-telling of someone elses nightmare. but it’s mine dammit. and it was real. Why am I still so broken inside?
I hope hes not like this, Im done being angry, its not his fault, I truly hope he’s moved on and past all that. I just can’t shake the shadows.
"When I look up, I see people cashing in. I don't see heaven, or saints or angels. I see people cashing in on every decent impulse and human tragedy." Catch-22 "We shall never achieve harmony with land, any more than we shall achieve absolute justice or liberty for people. In these higher aspirations, the important thing is not to achieve but to strive." Aldo Leopold "We pay a price for everything we get or take in this world; and although ambitions are well worth having, they are not to be cheaply won, but exact their dues of work and self-denial, anxiety and discouragement." Anne of Green Gables "Is love a tender thing? it is too rough, too rude, too boisterous, and it pricks like thorns." IV Romeo
